Busy times at work and in life sometimes make my mind tired. For that reason, this blog will be less about my thoughts and more about sharing something that has impacted me.
Anyone who knows me, knows that I love music. So, I thought I would share a song that has spoken to me almost every time I have listened to it in the past 7 years. Here it is:
Here are the lyrics to Alabaster by Rocky Votalato:
On the outside looking in
I've never been able to crack the code
to break the secret spell
that would open up the door and let me in
to everything I've been looking for so hard I've never seen
but I feel my strength returning tonight
its flowing from the purest well to ever give water
Out into an ocean where the sharks are circling
a carnival of counterfeits has no room for something real
Arrogance and ego wrapped around every word
shouted from the pulpit as a judgment to control
these were my roots my seed was thrown in shallow soil
I grew into the thorn bushes to be scorched by the sun
but I feel the gravel move beneath my feet
the smell of the gasoline mixed in with the trees
when my faith is strong I know my strength
the threats will be screamed when the vultures fell threatened
So I'll open up the door and let you in
I want to break the alabaster smell the sweet perfume
and when the bottle is broken I'll have nothing left to give
I'll know I'll already have everything worth having
but I feel my strength returning tonight
its flowing from the purest well to ever give water
it spills out into and ocean where the sharks are circling
a carnival of counterfeits with no room for something real
What the song has meant to me:
There is something beautiful in this song about the desire to just be real with God and humanity. Something that I confess I struggle with as someone who feels the need to be what people expect me to be as a youth pastor.
What does God say to you in this song? How do you relate?
